Let's blow up by saying that I have a manageable temper. Those who are close to me would agree that I'm not easily angered, and those who have actually seen me burst are only a handful. The way I express my anger may not be violent, but I verbally lash out my frustration, which is knowingly more venomous and sting deeper than physical aggression. So before we play with fire, I would like to apologise to those whom I've hurt with my sharp words, intentionally or not.
Once when my family and I were queuing to enter the cinema, an incident occurred that got my blood so boiled up I swear could cook a chicken, well done. While we were right in front of the ticket collector, a couple beside me literally jumped ahead of me, handed their tickets and walked in as if I'd never existed. Even the patron standing behind my family shook her head in annoyance and disgust.
I tell you, if I were able, I would trip them with my wheelchair and shouted, "Hey you blind ar!?" Then when the crowd fell silent and everyone was looking at the couple scrambling on the carpet floor, I would land a fatal blow, "SHAME ON YOU!!!" It did happen, in my mind, that is. I would really love to have taught them a lesson, but thank God I had to ignore those pests.
Other incidents that would generate steam out of my ear include showing of strength - not in a light way to poke fun, but when things don't go your way. Since I'm unable to retaliate, I take that as an exploitation of my disability. Another circumstance that would make me puke lava is sheer hypocrisy, those who say their principle is so and so but act contrastingly. But the most irksome of all is rotten attitude. It's one thing being knocked down by chance, but it's another when you choose to be a self-inflicted failure.
Looking back, that cutting of queue wasn't a cause massive enough for my imaginative volcanic eruption. In fact, those incidents happen often. Like any heated arguments or tyrannical happenings, anger doesn't solve anything. It does spark the initial the urge to stand up for what you think it's right, but if it isn't contained and conveyed with mutual understanding, the roots of the problem would never be extricated. And when things do turn ugly, remember that "he who angers you conquers you," as tweeted by my friend.
Still, there are times when expressing our anger in a civilised manner is necessary.. When there's a need to take a stand and fight for justice; when there's a need to voice out for the oppressed and destitute; and when there's a need to feel angry against evil, corrupt and unrighteous ways, let the burning passion for decency, morality and humanity raze down the house. That's when I am angry. What about you?